The Traumatized Princess

by ZD Redspark

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1.	Audio Princess Pt. I 02:23	lyrics	buy track
It's about time I open up the floodgates Everyone's hyenas and I'm try'na step above hate/ Dominate the beat like Rihanna that's some S&M// Fanfic you damn prick, haven't seen the best of them/ Bars like they wanna dive, I'm just try'na stay alive. Blessed to be a part of this Earth, if I do survive// I'm medicated off some tangie, I don't know, so go ask Angie. Actually don't, she probabl don't know a damn thing About me, actually while I'm sittin' here Waiting for Gadot like life's a novel I'mma make it clear//.... The audio princess is losing all her interest/ In you mumble rap peasants, so why don't you invest// In some passion, I want action like it's Cruise in fuckin Maverick/ You fuckin perverts askin' us if we have a dick// But you the shit right? Feces personified/ I hope your pathetic ass catches pink eye, stupid// You're damn useless and impossible to deal with/ I've sobered up but I wish that I could drink a fifth/ No wait, stop it. I'm goin out my mind again/ I remember 2009, drunk and high w/ friends/ Possibly the worst time of my llife, I can't lie/ Gone off some grape kush right now, I am too fried Stop it with the questions, I do not have all the answers/ Anorexia's inside me like a cancer/ Ball my fists up, I want the world to see/ a fighter that can take on the world, bitch I am me/ God blessed me so that I can be all I can be/ And if that sounds cornball, suck a dick or twenty three Bitch you cannot come for me in fuckin' Youtube comments Bhenchod stop it, one day I hope to make some profit Off some gossip takin toxic puffs off of some chronic I used to feel on top of the world,now I fell off it God dammit, this wasn't how I planned it/ But I'm determined to be one the GOATs of this planet// In conclusion, I have this that I wanna say/ Friendly reminder keep my head up cause tomorrow is another day//
2.	Audio Princess Pt. II 02:26	lyrics	buy track
I see that Satan wants to back seat drive again// I'm isolated and I've lost almost all my friends/ This the party that never ends, but it needs to die Down a little bit, in order to keep me alive/ 365 days a y ear I fight these demons Lurking within me but how are you supposed to see them? I am beyond help, I need to pass the torch. Casting spells on beats like the underground Voldemort// Who am I really but a claustrophobic fuck up? Suck up to the industry but fam you better buckle up Your seatbelt for this bumpy ride, THC my brain is fried. Feliz Cumpleanos to myelf I'm feelin like the fuckin bride In Tatantino's film assasinate the instumental Case, my head' in space, I've truly forgotten about time// Spend each day like it's your last, stop ruinin' mine/ This shit'a a banger, I suggest you mash the rewind Button a few hundred times, bump it like cocaine lines/ I ain't on that shit, right now I'm try'na light a spliff Of Zkittles so I can go to cloud nine, fam, this is it/ No Jake Paul but this is lit, sick of these fuckin kids Soundcloud rappers on the come up but it's weak sauce. My music taste's go from Eminem to Pitboss/ You'll take a big loss, thinkin you can come at this Punches miss, my lyrics take you places that don't yet exist Anna says I'm still sick, so I must be. Bumpin Melanie Martinez thinkin' I'm so lovely. I give thanks to my higher power above me I'm not perfect but I'm blessed and I'm lucky Audiochild in the flesh, witness a rebirth Never said I was the best, but I do prefer To smash these goddamn beats open like I'm crackin' eggs This is your brain on Redspark, must be off your meds/... Nobody can ignore me cannot call what I do boring, lemon runtz'll leave you snoring when I do fly I'll be soaring// Fuck the petals do you love me or love me not? Live life like a robot, and this is all that I've got To show for it, I don't exist just takin' up your time and space I hope for all our sakes, we all end up in a batter place// Sometimes, I still can't believe that I'm even here. Another day above ground, mate, fuckin' cheers!
3.	Americ*nt 03:15	lyrics	buy track
They wanna chew me up and spit me out again/ Watch for snakes in the grass, they are not your friends// I've been knocked down multiple times Rejected by the industry heads, who say I can't rhyme. Or have any motivation, I'm just seeking inspiration// I want to spread positivity throughout this nation// But I am only one fleck on this floating rock/ I just hope this pain in my head stops// It's hard to trust others, and even myself. I never wanted fame, just some respect and some wealth/ All I ever do these days is feel, orry about the past Them thing's will never change, so I guess that should be that But I'm still grieving what I never had, years later. I'm gonna use this force for good, no lightsaber I hate mirrors, so I tend not to look at me/ Sometimes wish I could burn this flesh to the third degree/ Sometimes I hate bein' me, I guess we'll have to wait and see What the future holds, and how will it unfold? I know this may seem a bit bold, But, this is how my story's being told// (hook) I'm an americunt citizen I wonder what kind of life we're living in/ How could we be this cruel to one an another? What happened to peace and love for eachother? Guess they tossed it by the wayside Now all I do is sit back, and get way high. Never planned to be a victim, but here we are/ All that's promised is tomorrow and the night stars//
4.	Lava Spitter 02:23	lyrics	buy track
Time to go in, curfew was like 1130 Shout out fuckin MC Chris, I'm feelin kinda nerdy// Powerbomb the beat like this WWE. Try them weak lyrics out on me, shit'll be like World War 3 Wreckin' like I was DUI shout out the fam C Whisky/ Flows'll leave you spinnin like you were sippin gettin tipsy/ Come along with me, explose the sights a little I'm one of the GOATs on the Atlantic play you like a fiddle Takin toxic puffs, because Mommy needs her painkiller. I'm way iller than half of you cats w/ lame filler I'm here to wreck it no exceptions shit'll get demolished Since I was young my skills improved, and I got polished// Fuck a "lifetyle" all I say is what I live Pour my soul out through these bars, so what else am I supposed to give? An audience is great, but I also do this for escape// My music's good like the first Planet of the Apes You cannot fuck with RedSpark, your a wet fart, I write them bars that are enourmous like the death star// Thinkin you can fuck with this, you won't get far I do this for the music, give a fuck if you like me? Try to do this battle shit, nah, highly unlikely/ Shit just never was my scene like a bad movie// I got my mojo back and now I'm feelin mad groovy/ Writin lyrics sippin mango at the Java Juice Smokin on some Shamrock Shake, they duckin' like I'm Goose But I'm not on that Top Gun, on this beat we havin' top fun You wanted a bad bar, well there, you got one. Zd RedSpark there is hardly any competition Kinda feelin like I'm Charlie, the way I'm steady winnin' Now I guess I'm steady grinnin, the flow's on lock To beat you gonna need the strength of fuckin Robocop and the AI version of Shady in 1997 mixed w/ Chris Webby and Nas turned up to 11. I'm not quite a haunter but I'mma leave this shit ghastly Try'na get my foot in the door, so labels @ me. Messin with the bull, horns finna decapitate and deconstruct the wack bars, man I just have to hate Step your pen game up a little then we'll fuckin talk Fuck ya life, if it was a plank, you would fuckin walk. I'm here to level up a bit like power level 9000 Some want the static but I bring electricity to keep me grounded//
5.	Galactic Barz ( Awkword-O ft. ZD RedSpark ) 02:46		buy track
6.	Like a Broken Doll 02:26	lyrics	buy track
I live the lifestyle of a broken paper doll/ Haven't smiled in a decade and I wonder if I can at all/ "The possibilities are endless" is what we're told But I have a couple fucking theories of my own// Perfection is the largest myth in America/ Body image or otherwise, UV the way they scared of sun// Shining like the image of a million stars// A million bars would have me like I'm on Mars But I've never been on that shit, like an ironic fly/ If you ever see me in person, leave me alone with no "Hi" Contact the contract is subliminal Messages via television business is essentially/ The same as it's ever been, no longer a skeleton But still got some in the closet, like early Eminem. Audio princess, it's still fuck ya life shit/ I was lifeless, now look at me, I'm like this/ But fuck it, I know my flow's gold, like it's priceless// Romanticize the eating disorder, I just might though. I'm a sick puppy like not immunizing Fido/ I need my mind back and I'm workin' on it bit by bit Do what I can and say never mind the old shit/
7.	Talkbox Terror 02:48	lyrics	buy track
Another day I wake up feelin' shit again, At least right now I can say hat I'm on the mend// Lyrical mindstate is excellent rhetoric. I hate smartasses who try to test their wit/ Fried like an egg on the pan, I'll admit it It's just another vice and I really need to quit it// Damn though life is hard, innit? I know my bars go over your head, you w/ the racket this ain't tennis. I'm try'na take over the whole world Maybe not but I'm one of the GOATS in the whole herd// Mind over matter I done stepped my pen game up a bit Haters motivate me but otherwise, fam, it's tough tits/ Cause I have no time for you, don't care about Youtube views 3 years since I've drank booze and longer since I've watched the news If you could see inside my mind you'd cry yourself to sleep. I never really knew that pain could go this fucking deep// Audiochild back on this roller coaster Askin where I got my scars, like I'm the damn Joker// Been through hell and back again, and I'm still alive To tell my tale I just do what I can to survive/ In a world that is full of ignorance and hatred I'm an artist, nothin bout me's even basic They say "fake it til you make it" But I saw the glass cieling they built, now I'm finna break it------ YOU cannot see me but my name isn't Cena Flow precise like the movements of a ballerina/ Not a primadonna by any means, I stay humble Hit the beat with more fire than a house that's about to crumble Let that motherfucker burn on wax like candles in a stormy night Punches like it's Rocky IV Apollo Creed with the right/ Night light finna fall asleep off this indica Yeah I heard your demo fam I really wasn't into ya whole damn style, It just wasn't my cup of tea Like butter on bread, me and this beat were meant to be You cannot pirate this, go swim in the seven seas/ You are a lame, your tape's hot? Nah fam, it'll never be.
8.	Arcade Flames 02:34	lyrics	buy track
Started in 96 with a Nintendo64 Gamer tag something stupid like "firewar" Master of the joystick? Nah but I enjoyed it Playin COD like I was actually on deployment Nah no disrespect, I'm just sayin though Oldschool NES I still stay playin those Super Mario, got the star power and I'm outta there, Flyin round with the wing cap like I don't give a care Try to battle Cartledge w/ the cartridge you get traumatized When you lose your brain is fried, like your lobotomized. Not a pro by any means, but this shit stay fun/ Goldeneye 007 multiplayer with the Golden gun/ Hit you w/ the Blue shell when we kart racing. Speed it up some, it'll get your heart racing Faster than a cheetah no-one's ever gonna beat a Gamer like me your bars cheese like Velveeta... Insert another token and see where it gets you Competition fam, if you blew snot I wouldn't bless you. Test you, Jet Force Gemini with the rapidfire Mizar ain't shit, tell his ant ass to retire It's down to the wire with these last couple bars/ I'm just doin this for fun, I'm no arcade star Just a nerdcore unsigned rap artist Hit 'em w/ the finisher we'll see which of you taps hardest Button masher when I'm up in Melee that ain't no surprise Lower your HP like I did to them hand guys/ ZD Redspark this is not the franchise But a one player mission losin' all my lives..
9.	Lame B**ches 02:07	lyrics	buy track
I don't understand these lame bitches Music soundin so washed up like clothes and dishes/ Unbelievable to me, that I made it this far You just hate and copycat, fam, you ain't no shootin star I'm a machine up in this thing, is anybody hearing me? I guess they'll listen to this song and they'll soon see. That was a recycled bar from like 2006 Years later and I'm still killin this music shit Shout out MC Chris, quite the inspiration Nerdcore will never die and that's a true statement/ Playin' games like it's 1996 again Add me on discord fam, we can be friends I'm here if you need me, and that's to everybody Here for the positivity no melancholy Vibes up in here, you just gotta medicate Or meditate, whatever flaots your slice of cake/ Or however that saying goes, I hope I'm artist 1 in 10,000 like I'm Django I can't go yet, like Flash I'm here to stay. Why do you listen if you people all decide to hate/ My guts so much, what did I ever do to you? I'm just try'na write some sick ass lyrics, dude. Bro, stop it, you are NOT it thinkin' delirious Clownin like Heath, askin why I'm so damn serious/ (hook) I don't understand you lame bitches. If I had a Genie, I would tell you what my wish is/ To stay positive and fight for survival It's a cold world, I don't wanna freeze This music ish, known to do it with ease
10.	Ode to my PTSD 02:46	lyrics	buy track
Broken into the same pieces of glass I cut myself with/ There are many days where I question why I exist/ I simply stare at the flowers as they begin to wilt/ Why do the ignorant always destroy what we’ve built? No intention of lying, this is not a front I’m a cunt, that’s why I bleed every month/ Playing the game of life that cannot be won, I thought my shit was supposed to blow up like the sun? But still nobody listens, I guess I make it for a select few, Watch for snakes, hard to trust those around you I am the prey that you abuse, on the regular, I am the “shut the fuck up” I said to everyone A hundred pills almost cost me my fucking life, And yet I still struggle every day w/ this fight. Sick girl, the skin and blood’s to show the pain is real The truth hurts and it’ll shock you like electric eels, I often ask “why is this the world we live in?” As I proceed to cut the temple like a spiteful Egyptian God help me, I sin on a daily basis, I just pray that I don’t exit the equation Life is hell, and I’m burning alive Playing rodent to this cage, I hope I survive Imagine if I were a female adolescent Instead I maybe should have taken the fuckin exit// Born into misery, God has forgiven me For punishing myself, I hope it’s history One day but until then the show must go on, Listen closely, you can all come along As that brave little princess inside of me sings her song, I’ll be the reason birds suddenly appear again/ I just hope I’m strong enough to ride this out until the end
11.	Another Castle ( Traumatized Princess Version ) 02:08	lyrics	buy track
This a massacre, no Texas Chainsaw. Don't ask me if it's fire, fuck around and burn my face off/ Nerdcore since 2005, All my mixtapes have nostalgia inside. Proceed at your own risk// Your shit's as useless as hittin' skip on a blank disc/ I'd rather watch the grass grow... Or visit Mars off some banana runtz, like this some gas, bro. Get up my energy like Goku with that spirit bomb// You lame AF, I don't care what type of shit you on// Mainstream lame-stream, Just because I am an artist doesn't mean I have the same dream//........... Honestly I'd rather be wealthy// And even more so, happy and healthy// Now what the hell can you actually tell me? Wicked witch of the west, you bitches better check the spells, B.... Record label deals they are all games/ Multi album contract but it's all same/ (unintelligible) Mumble rap shit, you are all lames// Bitch you could drink hot sauce, shit wouldn't be flames. I'm tired of the gossip I've heard it... This gift do I really deserve it?... I wish that I knew how to word this/ Insomnia ballds got me tossin' and turnin'.... Let me expand upon the resume. Present day, rap, sit back, I hope it resonates With anyone, You thought this was just for fun? You do an Odd Job on wax, my pen the golden gun...... I am on the warpath with this personal mission// You lazy like Snorlax, grab them cans and just listen// To the work that I put in bitch I can run on all pistons// Smokin' on ice cream cake, bitch I'm going the distance//.... You want my ass to shut up, but I am not Meg// Frat boy bitch, go puke on a damn keg// If this was a race, I'm on the last leg// Sorry I went off topic, now with that said// I'm an anomaly I 've never been basic Fuck it let's face it// steady like it's homeostasis/ Are you OK with always listening to the same shit? Didn't think so, so I'm finna switch it up a bit. Another beat that I done crossed off of my bucket list/ Redspark, instrumental does not know who it's fuckin with/ This another level I will show you where the dungeon is, Game Master, insert another token for the fuck of it//
12.	Traumatized Princess 02:45	lyrics	buy track
Miracle birth she was premature She could see the life but it wasn't hers. Unique kid and not like those other girls/ Salt the wound while the slugs eat what's left of her pretty world/ Sixteen is awkward had little to offer But lyrics she wrote found a light, some insight she could foster/ Seventeen she became suicidal But never told a soul, broken inner workings so vile// Los Angeles treated her to some unsavory demons/ Dressed in human disguises, left her broken and beaten The seeds of self-destruction were sewn after birth Society set it's sights when they grew forth from the Earth Hate and isolation turn to the most common of words/ And she sliced herself to pieces every time it occured// Inside she wonders if she's even worthy of her family's love The polarity of being given a toxic body from the skies above// Distorted thoughts every night in her head// It's not easy to look alive when a part of you is dead// As she cuts she screams "You little damsel in distress, ungrateful twat you cannot go back in time and be their princess

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released May 3, 2023

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ZD Redspark Towson, Maryland

30 y/o independent artist, lyricist/writer and sometimes I'll even make a beat or two and possibly do some freeverse/spoken word/slam poetry type stuff. It's all for you beautiful people's enjoyment, after all =3